I feel empty A hollowed carcass even the worms have abandoned These gracefully decaying bones once served a purpose The beauty and strength that once was reduce to brittle sticks of chalk waiting for their turn to become dust How … Continue reading
I wanted to be the heroine But your beast I cannot slay You’ve become her puppet The of protagonist of her play Your acting skills are impeccable No one can see the reins That is until you roll up your … Continue reading
Face to face with my shadow self I fall humbly to my knees. I see that the expectations I set for myself were so high that a darkness awoke within me – a “by any means necessary attitude.” My soft … Continue reading
I don’t want to shower I don’t want to eat I want to wither away Like a leaf on an autumn tree I’ll descend from my branch A slow cascade to the land of the forgotten : A pile of … Continue reading
This is the poem I wrote in memory of my sister Kirsten, but I hope it touches the hearts of all those who have had to carry the burden of mental illness or suffered the loss of a loved one … Continue reading
When you don’t recognize yourself When all you want to do is sleep When you are drowning in depression There’s a promise I must keep I have been here once before I somehow made it out alive A room without … Continue reading
Your heart is big and this world is cruel, but you were never meant to carry the weight of the world. Don’t you see it’s pulling you down and you’re drowning in shallow water. Open your eyes and see that … Continue reading
The beast in you was set free
You infiltrated my mind
Impregnating me
I didn’t notice the darkness within
But as time began to pass
I felt crawling in my skin
With no way to escape or hide
I fled into the woods alone
To face the demons inside
It’s too late; You planted your seed
More like a host than a mother
To a sadistic breed
Filled with light, this wasn’t my fate
I was a vulnerable girl
Who fell in love by mistake
Every breath I take is hard to bear,
But I endure their tormenting howls
For this curse isn’t mine to share
Through the pain I find sanctity
In knowing this contagious Hell
Won’t spread, but die with me
My Life Unscripted 