Face to face with my shadow self I fall humbly to my knees. I see that the expectations I set for myself were so high that a darkness awoke within me – a “by any means necessary attitude.”
My soft edges hardened. The colors around me drained into a bleak realm of black and white realities. This inner protector whispered to me: “I won’t let you fail. I won’t let you fall.” Syllables fused with self-righteous propaganda and coated with rainbow sprinkles. I ate that shit up. I was high for days tripping on my own ego.
Inevitably, my papier-mâché pedestal crumbled beneath me. When the lights were turned on, that darkness scurried away like midnight cockroaches, orphaned to face the consequences of myself.
My Life Unscripted 